I am so often so far from who I wish to be
Only showing the world the facade I wish them to see
Hiding inside the man a frightened child silently weeps
Retreating, concealing, hiding the dark secrets inside I keep
Longing to reveal my self in truth, power and authenticity
The glory of my design by a creator who loves unconditionally
Doubting my worth, my purpose, my destiny is tragic
For beyond the ages I was set apart by a deeper magic
Loved from the beginning in the time before time
Forgiven for each every committed future crime
Redeemed and saved I should bask in His grace
Why then, oh why do I struggle to take my rightful place
Dark forces of evil whisper of my failures that own me
Laughing, intimidating lies mask the truth of who I can be
Love is softly spoken in the few quiet still moments of rest
Why can’t I let go and accept His best
Gifts freely given like grace and mercy is bestowed each day
To live through Him and grow stronger in His embrace I’ll stay
To lose myself surrendering all my selfish needs
Realizing finally He is the gardener and I only the seed
Â ~Mark Schutter Â©2013
Wow you could be writing about me with this one…wonderful piece. God Bless.
Thank you so much! I was writing about myself 🙂 but glad you could see a little of yourself also.
Oh my goodness..this describes me too..Excellent! If we would just stop the hiding and take off the masks.. He is the potter and we the clay and be at peace knowing that He is still perfecting…
Thanks Roberta! I feel so humbled that my penned words of truth about myself touch others also. We are all broken, but not hopeless!
This is such a beautiful poem. It spoke to my heart and my belief in God.
Thank Colline your comment touches me deeply. I am just trying to be honest and authentic.
He the Refiner’s Fire and I his mortal clay. 😉 … Lovely poem with universal truth that few will ever acknowledge. I know this speaks to my truth. Thank you for sharing, Mark. … Be well, Dorothy 🙂
Thank you Dorothy! Your comment is so true. As I already commented just writing and sharing the truth about my own insecurities and trying to turn to Him to find my worth. Shining a light into the dark and who knows maybe it will touch someone else! 🙂
“Realizing finally He is the gardener and I only the seed” The realization that we are only the seed is a difficult one. I often cannot see the beauty that will become from all I go through, but like the gardener knows what the seed will look like, our Creator knows our beautiful outcome as well. I must trust in that. Thank you so much for sharing your heart!
I will always share my heart with you! 🙂
And of course, I will always share mine with you 🙂
Mark you spoke to me with this as well! It seems there are many of us who deal with the same insecurities and often live behind masks so nobody can see. One of my desires is to lose that mask! Working on it! 🙂
Thank you Elaine! It is nice to know I am not alone and we can all encourage and help each other on this journey! 🙂
Indeed we can! None of us is ever alone–it just feels that way sometimes when we tell ourselves we are alone. Praise God that he is with us always and at times we can even see him in the body of one of his “earth angels” who show up on our journeys for a short time or a long time.
Wow, that was so beautifully written! I can definitely relate as I’m sure many of us do, but you said it all in a wonderful way – well done!
Thank you Charlene!