I am so often so far from who I wish to be
Only showing the world the facade I wish them to see
Hiding inside the man a frightened child silently weeps
Retreating, concealing, hiding the dark secrets inside I keep
Longing to reveal my self in truth, power and authenticity
The glory of my design by a creator who loves unconditionally
Doubting my worth, my purpose, my destiny is tragic
For beyond the ages I was set apart by a deeper magic
Loved from the beginning in the time before time
Forgiven for each every committed future crime
Redeemed and saved I should bask in His grace
Why then, oh why do I struggle to take my rightful place
Dark forces of evil whisper of my failures that own me
Laughing, intimidating lies mask the truth of who I can be
Love is softly spoken in the few quiet still moments of rest
Why can’t I let go and accept His best
Gifts freely given like grace and mercy is bestowed each day
To live through Him and grow stronger in His embrace I’ll stay
To lose myself surrendering all my selfish needs
Realizing finally He is the gardener and I only the seed
 ~Mark Schutter ©2013
