Grief, Life, Writing

Reckoning…

As I navigate the publishing waters and my upcoming #memoir I find myself often at the edge of this proverbial cliff wondering if I truly have the wings to fly.

The doubts assail me that my story, the good and bad, the pretty and ugly will soon all be out there for everyone to see (read.) Not to mention is it any good and does anyone really want to hear my story. Will it make a difference? To just one?

To paraphrase lyrics from the TSO song Epiphany – when you stand at the edge of a cliff and your mind wonders if you should take one more step.

Your mind often says you won’t but your heart says you might. #Quote #Motivation #LiveYourDreams

I am choosing to take that step, into the unknown and a future that is fraught with fear but also the possibilities. Touch one life and you just may touch the world, ripples ya know!

PS – I will be revealing the cover of my memoir ๐˜พ๐™ค๐™ฌ๐™—๐™ค๐™ฎ๐™จ ๐˜ผ๐™ง๐™š ๐™‰๐™ค๐™ฉ ๐™Ž๐™ช๐™ฅ๐™ฅ๐™ค๐™จ๐™š๐™™ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐˜พ๐™ง๐™ฎ next Tuesday, July 27 here on WordPress and across all my other social media accounts, watch for it!

Now go and #LiveYourDreams๐Ÿ‘Š




Grief, Writing

Just this… don’t question how it begins.

Where it all began.

Just this… where the premise for my memoir ‘๐˜พ๐™ค๐™ฌ๐™—๐™ค๐™ฎ๐™จ ๐˜ผ๐™ง๐™š ๐™‰๐™ค๐™ฉ ๐™Ž๐™ช๐™ฅ๐™ฅ๐™ค๐™จ๐™š๐™™ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐˜พ๐™ง๐™ฎ’ started over three years ago. Ideas slamming into my brain and hastily scribbled on a 3×5 card.

I dived deep into my past and the pain to write my story over the next few years. Encouragement came in numerous ways from family and friends. I signed withย Christian Faith Publishing (@christian_faith_publishing)ย last fall to publish my manuscript. Now my story has been edited, formatted and the cover design completed, to be published very soon for the world to read.

Cover Design Teaser!

Never give up on your dreams no matter what. God gave you those dreams for a purpose to make a difference in the world. ๐Ÿ‘Šย #LiveYourDreams

#LiveYourDreams

‘๐˜พ๐™ค๐™ฌ๐™—๐™ค๐™ฎ๐™จ ๐˜ผ๐™ง๐™š ๐™‰๐™ค๐™ฉ ๐™Ž๐™ช๐™ฅ๐™ฅ๐™ค๐™จ๐™š๐™™ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐˜พ๐™ง๐™ฎ’
Grief, Writing

Memoir Teaser! Interior title page, Part 2 -Embracing the Present

Title page, ๐—ฃ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐˜ ๐Ÿฎ – ๐—˜๐—บ๐—ฏ๐—ฟ๐—ฎ๐—ฐ๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐—ฃ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐˜€๐—ฒ๐—ป๐˜ from my upcoming #memoir ‘๐ถ๐‘œ๐‘ค๐‘๐‘œ๐‘ฆ๐‘  ๐ด๐‘Ÿ๐‘’ ๐‘๐‘œ๐‘ก ๐‘†๐‘ข๐‘๐‘๐‘œ๐‘ ๐‘’๐‘‘ ๐‘ก๐‘œ ๐ถ๐‘Ÿ๐‘ฆ.’

“๐‘ป๐’‰๐’Š๐’” ๐’Š๐’” ๐’Ž๐’š ๐’”๐’•๐’๐’“๐’š, ๐’Ž๐’š ๐’“๐’†๐’‚๐’๐’Š๐’•๐’š, ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’Ž๐’š ๐’๐’Š๐’‡๐’†…”

A journey of carrying grief and healing while navigating personal and societal expectations around men and grief. Currently in the cover design phase and to be published later this summer.

How can you support the book when it launches?

  1. Buy the book (hardcopy and e-book), read the book and share on social media, post a review on Amazon, Goodreads etc.
  2. Buy the book (hardcopy and e-book), read the book and share on social media.
  3. Buy the book (hardcopy and e-book).

Thank you all so much for your support and encouragement! ~Mark (Exodus 15:3)

“๐‘ป๐’‰๐’Š๐’” ๐’Š๐’” ๐’Ž๐’š ๐’”๐’•๐’๐’“๐’š, ๐’Ž๐’š ๐’“๐’†๐’‚๐’๐’Š๐’•๐’š, ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’Ž๐’š ๐’๐’Š๐’‡๐’†…” #Memoir #CowboysAreNotSupposedtoCry #Men #Grief #MentalHealth

To view my post about Part 1 – Reconciling the Past click here.

Grief, Stories, Writing

My Memoir is Coming! Interior title page, Part 1 -Reconciling the Past

Title page of ๐—ฃ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐˜ ๐Ÿญ- ๐—ฅ๐—ฒ๐—ฐ๐—ผ๐—ป๐—ฐ๐—ถ๐—น๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐—ฃ๐—ฎ๐˜€๐˜ from my upcoming #memior ๐˜พ๐™ค๐™ฌ๐™—๐™ค๐™ฎ๐™จ ๐˜ผ๐™ง๐™š ๐™‰๐™ค๐™ฉ ๐™Ž๐™ช๐™ฅ๐™ฅ๐™ค๐™จ๐™š๐™™ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐˜พ๐™ง๐™ฎ’.

My story of carrying grief and healing while navigating personal and societal expectations around men and grief.

Currently in the cover design phase, stay tuned and sign up for my mailing list for more updates!

#LiveYourDreams

How can you support the book when it launches?

  1. Buy theย book (hardcopy and e-book), read the book and share on social media, post a review on Amazon, Goodreads etc.
  2. Buy the book (hardcopy and e-book), read the book and share on social media.
  3. Buy the book (hardcopy and e-book).

Thank you all so much for your support and encouragement! ~Mark (Exodus 15:3)

Grief, Writing

Page 1 – Cowboys Are Not Supposed to Cry

#UpcomingBook #PageOne

The edits are complete and hundreds of pdf pages of words now looks like a real book. I am so excited to get this story out into the world. I pray it helps others dealing with grief to know they are not alone.

#LiveYourDreams

Be sure to sign up for my mailing list to receive the latest news first. Upcoming giveaways, announcements and such as we get closer to an actual publication date.

Grief, Life

My Grief is..

“๐‘ด๐’š ๐’ˆ๐’“๐’Š๐’†๐’‡ ๐’Š๐’” ๐’‚ ๐’˜๐’‚๐’š ๐’๐’‡ ๐’๐’๐’—๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’˜๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐’˜๐’‚๐’” ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’˜๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐’„๐’‚๐’ ๐’ƒ๐’†!”

๐‹๐จ๐ซ๐, ๐ค๐ž๐ž๐ฉ ๐ฆ๐ž ๐ฐ๐š๐ฅ๐ค๐ข๐ง’!

Thank you all for the support and encouragement. The manuscript has been moved forward to the formatting stage, first for the hard copy and then the digital copy. The above and image is another one line, no explanation, and no context from my upcoming memoir > Cowboys Are Not Supposed to Cry.

#LiveYourDreams

“๐‘ด๐’š ๐’ˆ๐’“๐’Š๐’†๐’‡ ๐’Š๐’” ๐’‚ ๐’˜๐’‚๐’š ๐’๐’‡ ๐’๐’๐’—๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’˜๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐’˜๐’‚๐’” ๐’‚๐’๐’… ๐’˜๐’‰๐’‚๐’• ๐’„๐’‚๐’ ๐’ƒ๐’†!” #Memior #UpcomingBook #CowboysAreNotSupposedtoCry

How would you define your grief?

Grief, Life, Poetry, Writing

Unasked Questions

We all have questions that reside in our hearts and minds. They reside hidden inside. Sometimes they rest quietly and sometimes they are awakened.

I have many of my own questions of which I will never speak. I live with the not having the answers believing that someday in the undiscovered both the questions and the answers will no longer matter.

What say you?

and He will wipe away every tear from their eyes; and there will be no longer be any death; there will no longer be any mourning, or crying,or pain; the first things have passed away. ~Revelation 21:4

Life, Poetry, Writing

FREEFALLING – Who is there to catch you?

In the middle of the night, in the silence, in the darkness the voices in my head often scream the loudest causing my thoughts to freefall, piercing my heart. โค

Do you have someone who you can trust to always catch you when you are freefalling?

My God is always there to catch me of that I do not doubt. Yet, sometimes I need someone with skin on. ๐Ÿ˜‰

For me, this is my beautiful wife. My warrior queen who has stood by my side for over 25 years. Day in and day out she battles the enemies of our hearts, souls and minds. Enemies from within and from without.

I am blessed!

She reminds me what love, courage and grace were always meant to be.

Who will catch you when you are freefalling?

Grief, Stories, Writing

Podcast Interview is Live – 1/12/2021!

Exciting news! A couple months ago I was interviewed by Ronit Plank about my book “Cowboys Aren’t Supposed to Cry” and living through grief as a young man, and today is the air date!

I share my walk through cancer with my first wife, her death and aftermath of grief and the writing of my memoir > Cowboys Are Not Supposed to Cry. Listen to my story at And Then Everything Changed or any streaming platform. Know that you are not alone in whatever kind of grief you may have or be experiencing.

I pray God’s blessings over each of you. Be a warrior poet and

Live Your Dreams!