A Grief Observed, as well as other books and writings, by CS Lewis have comforted, challenged and confirmed many of my own feelings at different times with their stark emotion and startling honesty. Almost thirty-five years and a vast ocean between two continents separated the experiences of Mr. Lewis and my own. We were at very different points on life’s continuum; Mr. Lewis was in his early sixties when his wife, Joy, died and me in my late twenties when my wife died.
However, the experiences of Mr. Lewis I read about are eerily similar to my own experiences. The feelings of pain, sorrow, guilt and eventually a measure of acceptance and healing that followed. Grief is a solitary road we must walk alone, however the words Mr. Lewis shared have always made me feel not quite so alone, especially during my own time of anguish and the dark night of my soul.
My hope is that my words, the things I share and put into the world can do the same for someone else. We are all sojourners here on earth and sorrow at one time or another will wrap its cold arms around us all and hold us close. In those moments, we need grace and mercy, for if my own experience is any indication in those dark times of guilt and pain there often vows and promises made that we are never meant to keep.
At long last, 212 double space typed pages, over 62,000 words and 10 months later I have a rough draft manuscript that could be, just might be a masterpiece! Yeah! I finally finished my first novel after starting last November during National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo.) I completed 56,000 words during the month but it has taken me until now in fits and starts to fully flesh out the chronologically and tie up lose ends (I hope) and come to a conclusion that made sense with the original concept I started from.
Next step is having my lovely wife read, review and tear it apart just a little. 🙂 Then I will revise where and if needed. I will then be asking for help from others to read the manuscript and give feedback and then who knows. Publishing? Maybe self-publishing? E-book? If you have any suggestions or ideas I would love to hear them. Oh, and to come up with title! A little teaser about the story is below!
“Love and destiny sometimes finds us all when we least expect it, as is the case for two couples living in two different eras hundreds of years apart. As evil hunts each unlikely pair they find themselves in the fight of their lives as love grows for one another and faith in an all powerful God are renewed. The stage is set for romance and adventure and in the ultimate showdown between good and evil they discover of a love that exists outside of time.”
This is exciting for me and I have some other ideas percolating and hope to participate in NaNoWriMo again this year. Thanks for reading and all the support each wonderful reader of my posts has given to me. ~M
Poetry, music, creative writing and a desire to inspire.....Isaiah 41:10: So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.