Grief, memoir, Stories

Cowboys … Cry?

Vulnerable transparency post!

My just released memoir is titled:

Cowboys Are Not Supposed to Cry

So why is that the past few days I have been on the edge of tears?

There is so much going on in my life right now both personally and professionally, more to come on that later.

Not to mention the chaotic and confusing world we find ourselves living in right now. But like the Ringo Kid (John Wayne) said in Stagecoach

“Well, there are some things a man just can’t run away from. “

My friends I am not running but I am being wise as every warrior must be if they are to survive and thrive. May God bless you. Stay strong and remember sometimes even the strongest cowboys cry.

The print copy of my book (memoir) is available now on Amazon.
Life, Stories, Writing

A Story of Hope and Healing

I really like this black and white alternative image of the cover to my #UpcomingBook! I still like the colored version best but this definitely gives it an interesting feel. What do you think? ๐Ÿค”

๐‚๐จ๐ฐ๐›๐จ๐ฒ๐ฌ ๐€๐ซ๐ž ๐๐จ๐ญ ๐’๐ฎ๐ฉ๐ฉ๐จ๐ฌ๐ž๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐‚๐ซ๐ฒ

My #memoir will soon be published by Christian Faith Publishing and hopefully will be available within the next month or so.

“๐˜›๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜บ, ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜บ, ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ง๐˜ฆ…” ๐Ÿ‘Š

I share my personal journey of carrying grief and healing, while navigating my own personal and the societal expectations surrounding grief that are often placed upon men.

I can’t wait for both men and the women who love their men in their lives, to read it as it is ultimately a story of hope and healing. โค I also believe my story will speak to some ladies out there as well.

Sign here on the website ๐— ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐—ธ ๐—ช๐—ฎ๐˜†๐—ป๐—ฒ – ๐—”๐˜‚๐˜๐—ต๐—ผ๐—ฟ ๐—ฎ๐—ป๐—ฑ ๐—ช๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐—ฟ๐—ถ๐—ผ๐—ฟ to receive an occasional email with updates about my book and other exciting news. ๐Ÿ‘Š

P.S. Have a nice day! ๐Ÿค  Exodus 15:3

#LiveYourDreams

I share my personal journey of carrying grief and healing, while navigating my own personal and the societal expectations surrounding grief that are often placed upon men. #Memoir #CowboysAreNotSupposedtoCry #Healing #MentalHealth

I can’t wait for both men and the women who love their men in their lives, to read it as it is ultimately a story of hope and healing. โค I also believe my story will speak to some ladies out there as well. #Memoir #CowboysAreNotSupposedtoCry #Healing #MentalHealth

Grief, Stories, Writing

My Memoir is Coming! Interior title page, Part 1 -Reconciling the Past

Title page of ๐—ฃ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ๐˜ ๐Ÿญ- ๐—ฅ๐—ฒ๐—ฐ๐—ผ๐—ป๐—ฐ๐—ถ๐—น๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ด ๐˜๐—ต๐—ฒ ๐—ฃ๐—ฎ๐˜€๐˜ from my upcoming #memior ๐˜พ๐™ค๐™ฌ๐™—๐™ค๐™ฎ๐™จ ๐˜ผ๐™ง๐™š ๐™‰๐™ค๐™ฉ ๐™Ž๐™ช๐™ฅ๐™ฅ๐™ค๐™จ๐™š๐™™ ๐™ฉ๐™ค ๐˜พ๐™ง๐™ฎ’.

My story of carrying grief and healing while navigating personal and societal expectations around men and grief.

Currently in the cover design phase, stay tuned and sign up for my mailing list for more updates!

#LiveYourDreams

How can you support the book when it launches?

  1. Buy theย book (hardcopy and e-book), read the book and share on social media, post a review on Amazon, Goodreads etc.
  2. Buy the book (hardcopy and e-book), read the book and share on social media.
  3. Buy the book (hardcopy and e-book).

Thank you all so much for your support and encouragement! ~Mark (Exodus 15:3)

Grief, Stories, Writing

Podcast Interview is Still Available! – “Living through the loss of a spouse.”

Exciting news! A couple months ago I was interviewed by Ronit Plank about my book “Cowboys Are Not Supposed to Cry” and grief as a young man! I share my walk through cancer with my first wife, her death, the aftermath of grief and my healing.

The interview aired recently on January 12 and is still available. Click the link below to listen to my story and know that you are not alone in whatever kind of grief you may be experiencing.

God Bless and Live Your Dreams!

Let me know what you think and would you be interested in reading the book when it comes out later this year?

Grief, Stories, Writing

Podcast Interview is Live – 1/12/2021!

Exciting news! A couple months ago I was interviewed by Ronit Plank about my book “Cowboys Aren’t Supposed to Cry” and living through grief as a young man, and today is the air date!

I share my walk through cancer with my first wife, her death and aftermath of grief and the writing of my memoir > Cowboys Are Not Supposed to Cry. Listen to my story at And Then Everything Changed or any streaming platform. Know that you are not alone in whatever kind of grief you may have or be experiencing.

I pray God’s blessings over each of you. Be a warrior poet and

Live Your Dreams!

Grief, Life, Stories

No Turning Back Now – Podcast Interview

Airing this Tuesday, January 12 on the And Then Everything Changed podcast. I was blessed to be a guest and interviewed by host Ronit Plank, her intro on IG is below.

โšก๏ธNext weekย @mwschutterย joins me to talk about nursing his first wife through cancer, becoming a young widower, and what heโ€™s learned about the man he was all those years ago and who he is now.

You can listen in on all the podcast platforms – ITunes, Apple, Spotify and so many others.

This spring you can read more of my journey in my upcoming memoir ‘Cowboys Are Not Supposed to Cry‘.

Life, Stories

The DAY AFTER, and What Do You Do With That?

Every major life event, every holiday, every milestone, every anniversary, every accomplishment or disappointment is followed by the day after, and what do you do with that?

“So, this was it I thought, no trumpets, no angels singing hallelujah, no bright light, no  nothing,… she was just gone.

One line, no explanation, no context from my upcoming memoir ‘Cowboys Are Not Supposed to Cry’

As this post goes live today, December 26, is the day after Christmas 2020 ๐ŸŽ„and a week from now will the day after New Years Day 2021 ๐ŸŽ‰. Is it just me or do you experience pangs of melancholy during this supposed festive time of good will and frivolity?

So what can we do?

  • Pause – rest in the moments and let the world move on.
  • Anchor – revisit the memories and breathe in the feelings that come.
  • Believe – in hope for tomorrow until our journey through this life is done.

There are reasons to live
There are reasons to die
But the end’s not the end
While you’re still alive

~The lyrics above are from the song ‘There Was a Life’ from the album Night Castle by Trans Siberian Orchestra. Tomorrow is coming, so with faith and hope go…

Life, Stories, Writing

New Novel – No Title Yet!

I wrote a first draft of a new novel during November’s National Writing Month (#NaNoWriMo) creeping up on 70k words. I have no title yet, but here are some teasers of the story.

“I breathed a huge sigh…”

This is the line in the story that put me over 50k words and made me a winner in #NaNoWriMo for the third year in a row!

A silver shekel

The story revolves around the discovery of silver shekels in America that come from the time of Christ in the first century.

The book blurb!

So tell me what you think? Interesting or not?

I still have a lot of editing, along with working on my memoir ‘Cowboys Are Not Supposed to Cry’ and The Chronicles of Faith’ series. Even with the lock downs and such, 2020 has been a busy year.

So what have you been up to?

Grief, Stories, Writing

“What do you do with that?” – Memoir Update

“What do you do when the waves of finality wash over you and cover you in a different reality? Can one single moment define your entire life? A life is made up of a series of events, some happy, some sad, some magic, and some tragic. The tragic moments, the events filled with trauma, pain, and loss irrevocably change us forever. There is no going back from these events. We are undeniably not the same as we were before, so the question remains,โ€” what do you do with that?” ยฉMark Wayne

The above is an excerpt from my upcoming memoir ‘Cowboys Are Not Supposed to Cry’ due out next spring, exact date still to be determined. Here is a short list of updates of what has been happening:

  • The first round of edits has been done on the manuscript, waiting on the second round from the editing team at my publisher.
  • Received some permissions and fair use for quoted material in my book, other material has been rewritten to avoid using copyrighted material.
  • I recorded an interview with Ronit Plank for her podcast ‘And Then Everything Changed’ the date for interview to go live is January 12, 2021.
“What do you do with that?”

Grief and loss changes us, how could it not and what do you do with that? #WickedQuestions #BlogPost #Memoir #UpcomingBook

Grief, Poetry, Stories, Writing

Separate Journeys – Why Do We Bury Our Fears?

A short excerpt from my upcoming memoir ‘Cowboys Are Not Supposed To Cry to be published by Christian Faith Publishing in spring of 2021 (emphasis below added).

โ€œI only want her to not be in pain.โ€

He looked at me with a look of both sadness and resignation, his voice low and measured, โ€œThat is what I am focused on.โ€

I nodded in agreement, and he turned and walked away. I watched him stride down the hall his white lab coat flaying out at his sides. Standing for a moment alone, I collected myself midst the noise of the corridor.

Forcing myself to turn, I slowly walked back into the hospital room. I plastered a smile on my face and buried the fear so far down where I believed it could never be unearthed.

~Mark Wayne ยฉ2020

What have you buried?

What if it were to be found?