A Father’s Lament

Staring at the ceiling as
silent tears from the corners of my eyes
roll quickly down, leaving tracks of memories.
A new day is dawning
bright and beautiful full of promise and hope.
I lay quietly in the moment
as gratitude fills my heart.
Mixed with the sadness of loss,
I think of the past and ponder the future.
Between what was and might have been.
What is and what could still be,
I am often trapped on this knife-edge of uncertainty.
I am blessed and have been given so much,
each thing taken away replaced.
Still a spot in my heart that lies cold and alone.
I don’t understand the meaning of this,
I don’t understand the what, the why.
I am here, my life in the midst of this.
As confusion beats within my heart,
to live this life for all it’s worth.
To chose love and lose, the joy and pain
that follows us each day.
I am blessed, the people who care,
the world that promises so much.
But deep within it feels something is amiss,
a small part that forever is missing
from my strong heart.

~Mark Schutter ©2014

(This was the result of 5 minutes of free writing shortly after waking on Father’s Day.  My feelings were a mixture of emotions upon waking and this is what poured out onto the pages of my journal.  ~M)

Poem for Dad! Father’s Day!

The following poem was written and recited to me by my 9 1/2 year-old daughter for Father’s Day, it so touched me that I wanted to share.  The impact fathers (and mom’s) will have on their children is momentous, they are watching and listening.  You will make an impact, the question is what kind of impact will you make?  Happy Father’s Day to all the dads! ~M

I love my dad!
He makes me glad, when I’m sad!
Oh, I love my dad!
So, this is for you!
Because it’s Father’s Day!
 
This is for you!
But in a special way!
So, I’m going to explain, what my dad’s like.
So, I hope you’re not sitting in the rain.
 
My dad loves chocolate!
He’ll eat it every day!
He’s also writing a novel, safe to say.
He does tons of beautiful art!
And he’s really really smart!
 
But he’s silly in the head.
Though he doesn’t like spending too much money,
(so he said.)
 
He’s a biker as well.
But does a boring job, were he wear’s silly hats,
and I’m sure the next one will have a bell!
 
My dad’s the one that will do,
Or have to do everything in the house.
He even chased a mouse!
 
My dad is fun to fight and play with.
He’ll make me laugh most any time at all!
But I’m sure he gets bored when we have to go to the mall.
Well that is all, we have here.
I hope you liked it.
Now give me a cheer!
I love my Dad!

 ~Muppin ©2014

Mark Schutter ©2014

A photograph of the original poem and accompanying artwork. ~Mark Schutter ©2014

Intentional Acts of Kindness

Came home earlier today after 3 glorious days of camping with my girls; campfires, wildlife, great food, animals, mountain vistas and starry nights.  Well, we were unpacking after our trip always the worst part of going away and returning, when I hear a lawn mower out front of our house.  Nothing unusual there as we often have neighbors traveling down our dusty little dirt road on their riders mowing the edges of the street. 

But this time it sounded really close like right outside the window.  To our amazement our wonderful neighbor Heather was mowing our front lawn, say what!?  It’s true Heather was mowing our front lawn and would only say she was glad to do it and it was a Fathers Day gift for me, so I could spend time with my girls. I am not to proud to say I enjoyed having a lady mow my lawn for me!  Well to say I was shocked, humbled and thankful is an understatement. 

Thank  you Heather!

(PS – Heather is also a fantastic photographer visit her Facebook page here > Elements Photography to see the beautiful images of her work!)

Just that morning as we packed up the campsite and our trailer I had remarked to my wife that I was not looking forward to mowing the lawn when I got home.  You see we have almost 1 1/2 acres of grass, some parts had not been mowed in over 3 weeks and all I have is a push mower.  But, that is a story for another blog some other time.

Anyway, this awesome display of kindness by someone took me completely by surprise and I dare say it was intentional.  This was not some random act of opening a door for someone or saying hello but a well thought out intentional deliberate act.  Why do we all not do more of these types of things for our families, friends and yes; even complete strangers?  I know I should and I would like to vow to do this more often.  To see a need and purposefully fill it, random is nice but we need to act with more deliberate intention to impact others.

I challenge you now over the next week and each week thereafter to commit one ‘intentional act of kindness’ for someone and I would venture to guess if we do this once a week it will become easier and more frequent over time.  Post your experience of giving or receiving an ‘intentional act of kindness’ here in the comments section or on my Facebook page > Mark Schutter – Artist, so we can all share in the joys of being a light in the darkness for others.  And thank you again Heather, you rock!

PS – Happy Fathers Day to all the dad’s out there who make a difference everyday and especially to mine, Leo Schutter!